Therefore, words cannot express,
How much I feel decreased from your type of unfaithfulness.
Still.... I must go on.
There's no place to run to,
Nowhere to hide.
I have responsibilities stacked up on every side.
Most folks won't look beyond my face with it's smile,
To see the pain in my eyes that reflect my life's greatest trial.
I cannot even begin to contemplate,
the extent to which our marriage vows you did devastate.
Your transgressions you refuse to recount for me to hear...
Even if you did, I fear the loss I'd feel would be much too severe.
My love and trust -
You still want the first and the latter...
Do you think rebuilding trust is just a process of mind over matter???
I have cried buckets and buckets of tears.
I've cried more these past few months than my whole 40 plus years.
As I reflect on my losses...
God gives me a promise.
In the midst of a flood of tears on my face,
He reached into my heart
With a touch of His grace.
Though He says through this fire you must now traipse...
My Daughter..... Lift up your face.
Though things in your life will be burnt beyond recognition,
God completely sees and understands your situation.
To you it seems your world - down it crashes.
But God..... He promised me Beauty for My Ashes.
Isaiah 61:3 (NKJV)
"To console those who mourn in Zion,
To give them beauty for ashes,
The oil of joy for mourning,
The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness;
That they may be called trees of righteousness,
The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified."
Interesting Fact about Ashes:
"The energy from the fire that created the ashes breaks the Phosphodiester Bonds which hold the DNA nucleotides together. The DNA is destroyed at that point.
This blog is not meant to tear anyone down. It is simply here to encourage anyone else who might be walking through similar circumstances or experiencing similar emotions.
